FLYING FERRET #25, PAGE 8

Things are just chaotic in Dugland, I must say. I'm trying to organize my artwork, etc., for my Eyeskream.com website, which links to Flying Ferret, plus a couple of other comics, I work on, and a gallery, but... crikey, I can't seem to get it together. I still haven't organized since my move, and trying to go through it all, especially with little time I seem to possess nowadays, all it does is stymie me, stonewall me, if you will. I've put off my Flying Ferret comic, AND I even quit my True North comic, in the hopes that it would offer me MORE time to complete it, but how does the saying go, "the best laid plans of mice and men..."

That's the deal with me. I am unable to plan, or if I do, or if I attempt to, they are utterly, completely, topsy-turveyed, halted, squelched or squashed! It's as if I can not control my own destiny.

So, what has happened? I'm putting off working on the website, getting back to Flying Ferret (as you can see: otherwise, it will be ANOTHER frickin' month before i get to it!), and yes, I'm resuming True North due to popular demand. Of course, what will my credibility be worth now once I said I said I would quit and then come back to it. Will anybody ever believe what I say anymore. Maybe I've just learned a lesson, a lesson I thought I had already learned: just hold off, wait before I do anything or say anything, make dang sure I know what the heck I'm doing, but then we go right back to things seem out of my hands sometimes.

Why does that happen, I'm not sure. Maybe I need to learn the lesson of embracing it, go with it, and see what happens, but that's not always fun either. I have dreams, things I want to do before I get too old to do them! Or maybe I need to re-evaluate. AH! What a time to think such thoughts, especially at my age. Maybe this is a normal transition of life. I just don't know!!

Don't worry, I'm okay, it's not like I'm cracking up or anything, but somedays, a little peace of mind would really, really be nice.

See you around.